Top 5 lies that girls tell

1) I'm fine.
2) I'm not jealous.
3) I'm over him.
4) Sure we can be friends.
5) It's okay.

Welcome September

Good morning world.. Good morning Universe.. Good morning September..
Thanks God that i still breathe today.. Open my eyes, started the day with hope..  That today would be a better day than yesterday.. This month would be nicer than last month.
I will still be grateful for little i have right now, and for i had before. Even though now its gone, maybe it just your way to teach me to be stronger. Its your secret to give me the best! I know you have a better plan than i expected!
Im still grateful to had a hard time in the past month.. My heart being hurt, it broken, got stabbed, fell into pieces, but at least it still work. I have been cried too much, i was really down, and i felt like my world falling apart! But you give me hope to survive.. Hope about a better day, better situation.
And how you teach me to be a better person. To look at my self, that i don't have to be cocky and arrogant. Cuz i have nothing to be like that, when you want, you just take everything i have, and when you want you could gives everything that  i wish for. I know it doesn't work like that. You will not always give what i want! You work in a mysterious way.
And i also learn to grown up and not to be childish.  Facing the real and mean worlds. Again.. You still give that strength for me stand up.. Yes, Hope! As long as still there, i am sure i can survive.
If that hope will crush again.. At least i tried.. And i will learn again to be stronger!
I will not ask the perfect life for me.. I will just ask a fair one. Even though i know life sometimes is unfair. But I'm sure about something.When you're not giving it today or right now, or on the coming  next month or year, you will.. One day! Im sure.. Everybody who were suffers a lot would have a greatest happiness ever. And it happens with people around me.
Forgive them who hurt me. They just forget how to give.. And they just want to take.. Let them feel what i feel.. But i will not do it with my hand..
Life is always about karma.. Whats goes around comes around..
And karma has no menu.. You get serve what you deserves

So as long as i do a good thing.. God never closed his eyes..
I will reap what i sow..

Welcome September..  I know you would be nice to me..

I'm Not! And I am

I'm not angry because we broke up,
I'm sad because I can't let you go..
I'm not angry at you for not loving me,..
I'm angry with me for still loving you..
I'm not angry that I lost you,..
I'm sad because I once had you..
I'm not angry that I can't have you,
I'm sad because I know what I'm missing..
I'm not angry that you've moved on,
I'm sad because I can't..
I'm not angry that you won't come back,
I'm sad because I keep hoping you will..
I'm not angry because I hate you and don't
want to,..
I'm sad because I miss you and I love
you...♥♥

Things Every Girl Wants but Wont Ask for

Hardest day

Have you ever heard this song? Hardest day by The Coors ft Alezandro sanz
This is my favorite song.. It a bit sad song..
I used to play it often.. When i feel broken heart!
And yes! I will can not stop my tears while it played!

Like few moments ago.. I played this song a lot! Feel down, broken heart and sad!
But at those time.. I talked to my self.. I promised to my self..
This would be the last time that this song play as a soundtrack of my broken hearted!

Cuz.. After that i will just playing so many love songs..Romantic songs..
I wont closed my heart for new dream, new hope .. New love..
I know it would be not easy to found that one..
But for now...It's not about being in a relationship or being married.
It’s not about having a man by your side at all times. 
It’s not about commitments and promises.
It's all about feeling secure and sleeping peacefully at night without having the fear of losing what you've got. 
It’s all about feeling respected, understood and appreciated. 
It’s all about peace of mind. It’s all about the right person and the right time.

And often..  You fall in love with unexpected people at most unexpected time 

Its all about the time..
Im waiting ..
That day.. Its gonna be the hardest day to say goodbye.. But on the other day is gonna be a greatest day to say hello .. 

You are very welcome.. 

" Qualities"

Never miss a girl with the
following"Quali ties” ...

When she walks for miles to see you.

When she says “sorry” even though she
didn't do anything wrong.

When she cries because she still loves and
misses you.

When she still tries to get you back.

When she no matter how much you have
hurt her still loves you.

When she stops her argument with you to
save your relationship.

When she continuously makes you feel
special and tries to make you happy.

When she is upset but does not tell you as
she thinks she is annoying you.

When she wants to leave you because of
your rude behavior but she is not able
to do so.

Guys, don’t ever let her go, because you
may never find someone like that ever
again.
'n All girls, find someone special for whom
you can be like this

Just sharing!

Things Every Girl Wants but wont ask for

The Angel Without Wings

your tiredness become my fatigue
Your happiness definitely my blissfulness 
We always share our destiny
Unless everytime you fall in love
This time i almost lost my strength 
To prove you there is a true love
Which is Always stay there faithfully, trusty 
Could not bear to leave you alone
Although you often have fun with your own world



Sometimes you could not see there is an angel
Wingless, not brilliant not even pretty
But you can please compete this Love
Even the angel know.. Who would be the champion! 

Your emptyness will not disappear in over night
But the chance for me that might be not perfect 
But always ready to get tested
I feel so confident, my love so true
I have a true love to give


Sometimes you could not see there is an angel
Wingless, not brilliant not even pretty
But you can please compete this Love
Even the angel know.. I will be the champion
I am the winner!

The Haunting Memories!

You said memories gonna fade away, but it'll never gone! I agree with that! It will never gone! And no fade away! It will remain! It will haunting you! 

cuz, every time, every second, every minutes, every day, every lil' things will remind you of me! 

when you wake up in the morning, wide awake all alone without me lying next to you. no warm good morning kiss, or no sweet text when you check your phone.

it wont stop there.. when you get up and take a hot shower, those bathroom will still remind you of me. how we make a lot of fun under the shower, no one to ask to pass your tooth brush with toothpaste on it when you forget to bring it with you to the shower. you wont wait in front of your shower glass door with towel in your hand to cover me who will say " I'm Cold! " after shower. you can't take your eyes out of me when i put my body cream all over my body.  starring at me, when i walk with my sexy underwear. 

The memories still continues..

when you step out of your bathroom, you get used to see a hot of coffee that made with love just ready on the table. even before, you get used to make it on your own, but you gonna miss 'that coffee'! then you walk to the balcony.Don't  say that balcony wont remind you of me, don't say that you don't remember a lot of things, so many conversations, we made. from smoke cigarettes, drinks, eats, cheesecake and MnM's, candle, cries, laugh, until love making. i'm sure that popped in your mind this morning, every morning. but i also know.. you denied it! you try to threw it away. no you can not! it will remains and haunting you as long as you still live there! Or maybe.. forever! 

It stop there? Nope! I don't think so! 

you will start your day with your daily works! You think it just the same, but no its not! Again you will remember about me, when you make another coffee with that mug! or when you open your drawer you will see those stupid but sweet notes from me! No more text to give you spirits for your work, or only short message that showing you my feeling, or just small kiss on text! Meaningless? No.. You gonna miss it!

and again.. That memories still following you when you finished all your work and go back to your room.

you gonna miss that big hugs and kisses welcoming you home. how i pulled you to bed and undress you and make passionates love making. 

After that you will have your dinner. Whatever kind of dinner it is, it remain you of me! Dinner on bed? Dinner at the balcony? Dinner at the fancy restaurant? Or just small restaurant? Still, no one will feed you with hand! Even when you will have dinner with another woman, you hope that women gonna feed you like i did. Will they do that? Maybe.. I hope so! 

When you go to hang out with your friends , or cowokers or what ever you named it, you will get dress. Blue And red boxer? Thats for sure remind you of me! And i know you like it! Black tshirts? I'm pretty sure, again, remind you of me! Cuz its only black tshirt you have! Oh no, there is another one with " work hard, play hard" on it. But you prefer it as a 'sleep dress' than to hang out! Lol

You gonna wear accessories on your hand.. Put your bracelets on! You could wear it all, but i know your favorite is those three braclets. Black, brown and black! Well.. Its good on you! 

Then you go to drink somewhere! Those cafe? Those bar? Or those bar in town? Still remind you of me! How we had fun together, got drunk, slow dance and sing together on that song, birthday surprise party, birthday gifts, champagne, wine, or beer! Its just the same! All just good memories will keep and stay and remain in your mind! 

Even when you walk to the beach, i still there walking beside you.. But just not hold your hand. When you watch that sunset, i still there sit down beside you on the sand, but not hug you. when you eat and drink those beer on can, i still there but not drink and eat with you. I still there, but only my shadow. Which is gonna hurt you lil bit, or maybe pain you a lot?! 

Then, when Sunday come.. You will stay on bed until the sun really up.. You will be lazy, but no morning glory! In real or imagination or fantasy! 

Another daily Sunday remain the same.. Coffee, shower, smoke time, lunch or dinner! Then Movie..

When you going to the cinema, you will order big portion of fish ball with chilli sauce and chicken nuggets. But i think you will cancel that fish balls.. Cuz you will eat it all alone! And you will sit on your seat without touching or holding and kissing someone beside you. You could be there with group of your friends, or maybe another woman. But, it wont be the same! 

I'm sure.. Cuz i know you so well! 

Well... I feel like i hurting my self right now to write this kind of things! 

If i want, i can keep write all the memories we made. From small things to a big things, from simple things to details! 

But, without i tell you here.. Its already there, stay in your mind! Only in your mind!

Its hard to forget someone who gave so many remember! Indeed! 

But i know i can do it! Remove it, cut it, paste here. I will just laughing at my self one day when i check it back and read it here. Cuz i probably  already forget about this memories when i read this story. and that time i probably think I'm crazy and stupid- i already think i am now. how fool i am. how silly i am. I Will just run away so faraway.. Leaving you with all those memories.. I will disapper physically.. But my shadow will remain! 

Brand new day will come soon.. 

I welcoming you with new hope.. Welcome... Happy life :) 

Why?

Dear Ladies

He isn't worth it. 
Why cry over him when he's out there smiling because of someone else? 
Why think about him when he's out there with another person occupying his mind? 
Why stress over him when he's out there with no worries about you? 
Why wait for him to hit you up when he's probably texting another girl at this moment? 
Why miss him when he's glad to be where he is with who he's right now? 
Why keep on trying to make things work with him when he's trying to chase someone else instead? Why keep showing him attention when his attention is on everything else but you? 
Why care about him when he doesn't even act like you matter to him? 
Why have feelings for him when he honestly feels nothing towards you?
 If you were worth it to him, he would fight for you. But does it even feel like you are?
 If not, then why are you still fighting? Stop fighting, & slowly start to let go.

Same Happens To Some Guys.. 

FOR THE BROKEN HEARTED

..........
I know how you feel. Empty,
betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh,
because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry,
because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is
falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is
going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever
end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels
impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they
have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the
confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people
who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most.
And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like
you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just
going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to
where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got
over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't
help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are
there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep
you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to
them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't
know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so
you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling
starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right
there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly
start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who
see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and
so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And
in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any,
and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in
the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you
finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat
starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to
hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it
won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of
the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible.
You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone
thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you
know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart
yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason
they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one
person could have caused all of this...



Things Every Girl Wants But Wont Ask for

You are not alone

Right now, 
there are people all over the world who are just like you. 
They're either lonely or they're missing somebody. 
They are in love with someone they probably shouldn't be in love with. 
They have secrets you wouldn't believe. 
They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever they're in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch people on the streets and wonder what they've been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them.
 They're like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand. 
And right now, they're sitting here reading these words,
 and They are writing this for you 
and me... share this things for you..so you don't feel alone anymore. 

The sources

10 LIES MOST GUYS TELL

1) "No, she's just a friend".
2) "She's like a sister to me".
3) "I would never yell at you".
4) "I won't ever hurt you".
5) "I would never cheat on you".
6) "I'll always be there for you".
7) "No, I wasn't looking at that girl".
"I'll never leave you".
9) "Oh, I'm just texting my boy".
10) "I love you".
(These things aren't always lies, but it's up to you whether you believe it or not.)

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One day you wake up from that sweet dreams

for you...
those who are just falling in love
and all the love birds out there. TAKE YOUR TIME TO READ IT ALL”
Sometimes it's very hard to tell one’s intentions towards you.
 Someone can come into life, they start talking to you day and night. They make you believe
and get used to them. They make you believe that they are different from the rest you have ever had. You start finding ways of making things happen. You totally get taken up by that person’s care and love. You start to lean on them and you find your life can't do without that person. You believe in
everything they tell you. You get down on your knees and thank God for sending you that HERO. You now ignore other people that are into you. You comfort that person. You be there for him/her. You trust them but then one day they wake up and they start hurting you without thinking twice.
They torture your feelings. They break your heart into pieces without thinking of what you have gone through with them. 
Seriously sometimes I wish there was a way one could identify the REAL SERIOUS PERSON.
 I wish that person could come with a LABEL on him or her. I wish there were fixed dates for one to know when he/ she will be but hurt, chucked and cheated on but no way to tell.
 Seriously some people are just tourists to our LIVES and HEARTS. They are never to stay forever.
They come with a packed mission and when it's done then they show you their true colours or they open up the hurting truth. Some people just enjoy hurting the other but why?
Why making someone love you yet you won't stay forever? 
Why make some give you his/her heart when you are to break it? 
Why make someone care about you yet you well know you will disappoint him/her? 
Why using someone for your own benefit? 
Why making someone cry yet you won't be there to rub his or her tears?
Why telling someone that I LOVE YOU yet you don’t mean it or yet you’re in
love with someone else? 
Why doing those dirty things behind someone you claim that you love and care about? 
Why not being contented with what you have?
Why flirting with other people yet you already have someone you love?
 Why some people don't fear to acquire viral diseases? 
Why wasting someone's time and energy yet you are to leave him or her?
 WHY WHY??? My friends be CAREFUL, be careful with your lives, be careful with your delicate
bodies, be careful with your delicate hearts, be extra careful with people who tell you that they "love you."
Many don't mean it. It's just a common word to them. It's just a word they tell to anyone who is
interested in them; it's just like a local song to many people. Stop wasting your TIME, ENERGY, FEELINGS & MONEY to people who aren't willing to waste theirs on you.  
When someone tells you that they love you take your time to tell them that you "love them too". 
Stop accepting people to blind you with that word. 
Take your time to decide as you are testing ones patience and seriousness. 
Never rush....!!!!!!!!!!!
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PMS! Period MakeMe Silly!

18 June 13
2nd day, my period. Annoying! Finally I cried!after a whole day I kept the tears! Its always makes me up and down. Just feeling mellow! Blue, grey or whatever
Just feel about doubt, feel being ignore, needing someone, to give a shoulder to cry on! I know that I must not focus about needing someone! I can found my own happiness. I can create a smile. And there are so many reasons to smiles and laughs! I just need to find it. Or create it!
Its just silly of me!
My head always travel all alone..

Maybe life just like a laptop, or computer. When its hang, error or going slowly, just need to restart. Or shut down, so when its start again, will be much better. I just need to sleep, shut down my brain, hope a better day when I wake up!
But, I don't want to wipe all the memories for now, so I don't have to format it to factory setting, before I have any back up all documents inside. Important documents I wanna keep remain.
Okay, close my eyes, thinking about good things, smile, sweet dream, and then smile again when wake up!

Happy Tuesday! Day oooofff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Happy Founders Day - Hard Rock cafe

Took from HRC Penang Facebook page

14th of June, isn't a special day for me. Especially this year. Cuz i really need mood booster. But, the sun always be a good mood booster for me. Thanks God the sun is shinny today
But, 14th of June is a special day for Hard Rock Cafe.Yes, indeed!
Why? Cuz, its Founder's Day. The day when Hard rock cafe was born In London on June 4th 1971.
As a band whom perform at Hard rock cafe, we become part of this celebration, and me as singer at this band become a part of this celebration as well.
So today i got up around 2 pm. Opened up curtain the see if there any shining sun for me today, cos it was horrible weather yesterday. Rain and storm!
And yeaah.. The sun put a big smile on my face! Time for sun bath! Grab my bikini then put sun
block on my body.

I walked to Hard rock Hotel, and saw most of 'band members' (they called all staffs as a band
member) wore a cool stuff outfit from 70's. mmhh.. Cool!
And we will wear the same cool stuff tonight for the party at Hard rock cafe. I bought this cute dress
2 days ago. Can't wait to show up! :-)

Then i walked to staff canteen, the name is Motown, to have some late lunch. 

Cake at Motown 

One side of table at motown

 And the menu was lil bit different as daily menu we has everyday, except there had some event. Oh yeah, its a special day!!
Look like i came so late, cuz i saw empty
plate of some foods storage. So, i just found spaghetti carbonara, Caesar salad, fish and chips, and mashed potato. Not bad at all. And i also found ice cream. Hmm.. More
than enough to feed my belly before take the sun.

Rock shop band member

When i walked in to the pool, i saw shop staffs in front the
shop, all wearing 70's costume. I grab my ipad and took their
picture! Say roooooooock!!

And here i am  now, lying under the sun. Feel the heat, feel happy and relax 

Let me enjoy my sun, then i come back to tell the rest story if this
celebration, cuz its not finished yet.




-––-–———————
Lets continue what was happening on founders day celebration at Hard rock cafe last night.
After suntan time, i went back to Motown, time for dinner :-p oh yeaah.. I always hungry! I was on time those time. Cuz i saw the plates with load of food!! Actually it was same menu as lunch, but i didn't see that amount of burger, chicken grill, and another small cake on lunch. Cuz it was sold out! Lol!! I ate again, but this time with burger and grilled chicken. I drank ice cream shake. Or lets say milkshake. Chocolate milkshake.  

After dinner i bring my laundry then home. Took a shower and prepare my self. We must stand by earlier, cuz we might be play earlier as well. So, i putted on my make up, my 70's dress, and accessories. And i wore my wedges! Which is look good on me, i look higher. but I couldn't move as free as i wear flat boots! And especially for men, you will never know what women feel on heels! I must took 2 shoot of tequilas to relieve the pain on my feet. LOL.. Cuz i sang with that wedges for 4 sets!i and i have to dance! Dance on this shoe??? Give me another glass of beer!!!! Oh my!!!!!!! But i made it!. 

 When i came to Hard rock cafe around 9 pm,  the crowd was good already. And i saw long table with red cover on da stage. Bite competition was starting there. Five guys stand behind this long table, their mouth kept chewing, their hand hold burger. So, there were quick bite challenge.  I didn't give more attention to this competition. But i saw like  three or four rounds with different participants 
every round. 
If i were 
on that competition, i will be lost that for sure!!I can eat burger, but eat burger like that quick! Brrrrrr! I will never ever win a competition about eating something! Much, or faster! No! Im a cool chick who eat really slow!! Lol  

After all those quick bite challenge,  then announce the winner, time for main celebration. Sing happy birthday, blow the candle and cut the cake. But this year the cake was different. It was a giant burger!!!  Not a cake!

 After that main celebration , we started the set with YMCA song, Hard Rock staff dance together on this song! We played for around 30 minutes with all 70's songs. Then took a sort break as usual. 15 minutes! And another 3 sets after.. Tiring especially me on that wedges! But 
it was fun! I had fun! The people had fun! 

Happy born day for Hard Rock .. 42 years.. And still exist!

Have a rockin birthday!

Keep rockin'!!!!

 

June 13'13

apa dayaku?
Aku bukan siapa-siapa..
Aku hanya duri diantara bunga mawar
Aku hanya rasa pahit diantara madu
Aku hanya seorang badut diantara pesta meriah
Dan aku hanyalah orang dibalik layar

Apa aku tak boleh memiliki perasaan itu?
Apa aku tak pantas merasakan apa indahnya cinta?
Apa aku tak pantas merasakan indahnya dicintai
Apa aku tak pantas berdiri disampingmu
Apakah aku sejelek itu?
Apakah aku sehina itu?

Mungkin aku hanya ditakdirkan untuk aku!
Mungkin aku hanya diperbolehkan bermimpi tanpa mewujudkannya
Mungkin aku hanya diperbolehkan untuk menderita
Mungkin aku dilahirkan hanya untuk sebuah lelucon semata.

Aku berhak untuk bahagia
Aku masih berhak mencari bahagiaku
Aku masih berhak untuk mendapatkan apa yang aku mau
Aku masih berhak mewujudkan semua mimpiku!

Atau mungkin tidak sama sekali?
Aku hanya harus membayar semua kesakitan yang pernah aku buat.
Akau hanya harus menerima tak boleh meminta
Dan aku hanya harus menerima karma?!!

Apakah ini cukup adil bagiku?
Mungkin ya!
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Day off plans!

I did day off dancing when i just arrived home after gig tonight. Ooh yeah.. Another day off! After party, party, party!!!! I love Monday now. Cuz it real close to Tuesday, my day off.
I ate my supper so much! At riverside, small restaurant in front of Hard rock hotel with all Band member, and my manager as well. Quick meeting after supper make my tummy scream again! Need some snack! I end up with chewing chicken flavoured crackers, and mister potato fun fries. Sorry, i love eat! LOL

Lets talk about what kind of things I'm gonna do tomorrow!
Visit my secret spot?That's for sure!! First plan!
 This place makes me addicted. How come i don't! Comfort place, nice food and drink, hot vanilla tea become my favorite. And m&m as a small bites ;)
I can lie down and cover my feet when its cold, I can have sun bath as well when the sun is shine.
I can hear very nice music, nice songs, or i can watch movies. And i can play games. Any games!
And this place have a nice,humble kind charming owner.nice, cool funny hot staffs. And one more thing, i could sing as well if i want. But, no for that one! Sing too much already!! 😬
I think i can spend whole day at this place. One thing that i hate, is when i have to leave, even though its open for 24 hours, but i can't stay there forever cuz i have to work! Lol
So tomorrow.. Its time for "me time" . Where i can be happy on my own way, where i can enjoying my self, and be my self.

Another plan for tomorrow.. Shopping!!! Yeaaah.. !! But, naah.. Its not that kind of shopping. I just to buy a dress, for founder days on 14th of June at HRC. Back to 70's, kinda cool! And we will play the
 songs from 70's.


3rd plan.. Do something special! Even though i don't know yet what kind of that something special. 😆 just wanna feel special on my day off! Cuz before, i wasted too much! Just stayed at room, played games that i can finished only in 3 hours, or just watch movies on Youtube. And i didn't see the world.  So, i think i missed a lot of fun things.

4th plan... Sleep late as usual.. Or depend how tired i would be after all those plans! I hope the weather could work together with me! Hey weather.. Be nice with me for tomorrow ya!  I don't want rain ruin all my plans like you did on my last day off! I will really appreciate if we can work together as a team! Thank you. 😎

Well, thats all my plans so far for my day off!

Be happy, have fun, fall in love , enjoy, smile, be crazy, and regret nothing!!!
Off to bed!

Last month - Penang

Second week of June.
I'm still in Penang Malaysia. And this gonna be our last month. The contract at Hard Rock Cafe will end soon, about 3 weeks to go.

I really miss Home.. If i can call it home.. One day, i would like to go a place what i can call it Home!
I know that i won't be traveling forever. I just wanna stay, settle down, with all the people i love at a place that i call it home.

"Home... hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home... I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home "
~ Walk on - U2

Lets say.. I miss all the people i loves... My angel and my prince, My family, my best friends!
I miss the city where i was born, Bandung.
I miss the weather, even sometimes i feel its too cold or rain too much
I miss the people, even sometimes they pissed me off
I miss the foods. I can't complain about this one. I just love Bandung's foods!
I can't wait to eat Bakso, Sambal, Jengkol, Sundanese food!
Anyhow.. Its coming soon!

Penang..
One thing that i love from this island is beach!
I can have sunbath whenever i want! Except when its rain like this Sunday and last Sunday.
And.. One more thing that i love the most from Penang. My secret spot. At Batu Ferhinggi area.
A place where i feels comfort at, a place where i can run from my routine, a place where i can be me, take my mask off. Where i can be happy, where i can share all about my feeling, i can cry or laugh! where you feel love and be loved in that same time.
My favorite spot! My secret spot that i will never share with another! Cuz, its just my spot! That what  i wish! But, no! one minus thing about this spot. Sometimes, the other takes my place, my favorite spot! So i can't come to enjoy, to have 'me time'! I wish that i could make a same spot wherever i go! I really need it! Especially this month, after something bad happened. And i still have time to go.  I'm gonna miss this place when i leave Penang. Hope that i can come back here next time, and my secret spot still there!

So.. 3 weeks left before i go back to Indonesia. Still have time to have fun and forget all about unnecessary things. About what people think about me, or about shit happened! I just wanna be happy on my own way! Everyone is gonna have their opinions about me, how i act, who am i, best thing to do is not really care at all! And nothing will change who i am!

I'm sweet.. For my someone special
I'm tough.. For my family
I'm dangerous ... For my rival
And I'm all bad ... for you who don't have any quality inside you to see what my values are
I've decided to be happy... Cuz.. Its good for my health and my heart😋
Life is too short to worry about stupid things! Have fun, have fun, dance, sing, fall in love, laugh, regret nothing. There are so many ways, so many reason to smile.. So, find it!
*uuh am so wise!!!!!! LOL
 Just cheers!!!! For Happiness!!!!!!!

I'm not that Woman!

I will telling to my self
I'm not that woman!
Who can make your life better
Who can always stay behind in any situation
I'm not strong enough to be broken
I'm not patience enough to wait
I'm not brave enough to live in unsure situation
I'don't have enough trust believe what we will have
I don't have enough hope to make those dreams
I don't have enough love to loving you the way you are
I don't have enough courage to live alone and feel lonely

I don't have that hand to wipe your tears
I don't have that shoulder for you to cry on
I don't have that lips to say wise thing to support
I don't have that eyes to cry with you in a bad time
I don't have that ears to listen what I don't wanna hear
I don't have that feet to follow your path and line
I don't have that heart.. To love you more than anything, everything, to love you forever

It hard to believe, I'm not that woman,you've been waiting for long times
It hard to believe that I'm not that woman ,you've dreaming of

You will be sad, so do I
You will be unhappy, so do I
You will feel broken heart,so do I

But.. Its only for a while
I promise you..
You will be happy.. With her..
With another woman
That woman
You've been waiting for!

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Welcome.. Another challenge

I'm here.......
Woke up at 4pm or 5 pm.then music briefing at 1st floor.. Until 8 pm, then prepare, make perform, have rehearse after gig, at 3 am till 5 am.... Sleep late at 6 am or 7 am...
Work hard... !!!!!!
Thats me... At tis moment, at new venue..
Hard rock cafe Penang!!!!!
Yeaaaaay.... After 2 months i disappear.. I just showed up...
Yeah... I have new gig.. Started since 1st of April, after amazing Bali's vacation for 17 days with my bf, then almost a month stayed in Jakarta, have gigs twice in a week at Rollingstone cafe Jakarta, 3 times a week of rehearsal.. At last im here... At Hard rock penang.
It was long journey to get here! It's not easy to get here.. I mean.. To always have a gig at hard rock. For some musician its a big dream!
And i feel so lucky and grateful to have this gig. I will still have to learn and learn, and i feel so lucky to have more experiences, and still can learn and learn, and learn!
New gig, new place, new experiences, new challenges, new friends! All new!
Im not afraid.. For sure, i will keep goin. There will always be problems. But, im sure, i will always find the way... To solve.. And i will stand, then jump high, higher...

Welcome .... Another experiences...

I will facing you... Strong and gently.. Lol