Wednesday 28 March 2012

i Closed my eyes

Hari ini aku berdoa..
Tuhan..
Teguhkan hatiku .. Untuk tetap memilih Dia..
Teguhkan hatiku..  Untuk menjaga Rasa yang aku punya

aku ingin menjadi yang terakhir untuk dia
dan,
aku ingin dia menjadi yang terakhir untukku


jadikan kami  pasangan yang berjodoh
jadikan hubungan kami kokoh

aku ingin selalu berbagi
tanpa meminta namun selalu memberi
aku ingin mencintainya dengan tulus
aku tidak ingin kehilangan dia

aku ingin.. menghabiskan masa tua ku
Dengan Dia

amin

Lucky / Unlucky

The day already turn to Wednesday for me.. 1.44 am my laptop time..
A week ago.. precisely on Thursday around 3 pm. I had lost something precious, i could say for part of my life.
i lost my phone.. :( My phone has been stolen in public car!
that time i was thinking .. im not lucky! i have really bad day.. hard day for me!
but.. we never know..
i heard some story from my boy friend.. about China Farmer.. its inspiration story.. that story tell about something Lucky.. and Unlucky .. sometime we feel lucky that we have something, then in another day we will says  'i'm not lucky', or she / he is not lucky. 
like the story i had.. that time i said.. i'm not lucky! but.. in some days.. i get the new one.. from something that i didn't expect before.. and more good thing.. i have a better one.. How lucky i am!
but, actually.. what i disappointed about this lost.. My memory card inside.. is like my memory about my life.. my past! the pictures, Video, my contact, all about my works.. the moment that can't repeat in the future, and its also my fault.. i regret.. why i didnt back up my file.. hehehe.. stupid me!!
but.. i really learn so much from this..! Really!!
Good bye my white.. welcome my Black
I'm ready for new stories ;)


 

Wednesday 21 March 2012

Dream Come True!!!

Believe in my dream, that's what i always do.. My dream, that's what i believe will come true..
Is it like a dream come true?
God hear my pray?
Even i know it would be a hard work, new experiences for me, another story in my book of life that i write
New challenge, new world.
But I'm sure i can do it..
I have to do this..
Another Big decision in my life..
I have to go, i have to catch my dream, i have to make a future that really close to me..
I will never give up, i will never be afraid of new challenges.. I will do my best
I have to prove it, that i able to make something in my passion.. Music.. My life

And this is the highest level of my dream in music life
Go abroad!
Another part of the world
I'll be there.. For my passion
For SING!for MUSIC!

i don't need anything.. I just need SUPPORT.. From the people i LOVE
My family, my friend and my Lover..

Wish me luck.. Finger crossed!!

I will prepare all about this
I'm ready!!!!
YeS!!!!!!!
:)))))))
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Monday 19 March 2012

The Story - How she meet her lover (Serialize)

Hi, I'm Ste*.*.*.*.*..
please leave your message after this beep!

That's the meaning probably.. Maybe..Cos that voice talked in french .

' Good morning baby.. I just wanna say.. I love you so much .. Wake uuuuupppp!! '

And that the message i left on his voice mail :)

Morning for him, and afternoon for me.
Different time, and different world.
Different country also the culture.
Food, and weather
Age and skin color
But we have the same addict!
Skype! Video call, face, smile, kiss and Love and also 'cactus' for me (lol)

My mind is like flying, travel to one Island, the Goddess , an Exotic island . Few months ago.

When i decided to wear that 'sexy,hot' brown leopard dress with brown heels after i change with another dress,and finally the choice is back to this dress.

When that night i decided to cancel my party with one of my friend in some club to see him play on his Dj table,because he was lil' bit annoying.

When i decided to go to this small rock bar in legian,walking with heels on the street to meet one of my friend to make party as we did before.and walk in that bar sitting on the bar waiting for 'always late' friend and order one of Bintang .

When i decided to move from that table cos i see one of the guy from 3 days ago come again with 2 other guys sitting beside my chair.and i still remember of him cos' i try to flirt,but he look not interest with me 3 days ago,and why tonight he will suddenly notice that I'm there.

When i decided to order another arak in a jug and shake it while i drink another bottle of Bintang and stand up on the street outside the bar laugh free like a bird singing out of the cage.

When i decided to make jamming with the band whose perform in that bar,singing 'what's up' song by 4nonblondies with ausy girl who's drunk and also sing on that microphone nearly to my mouth and shout loud when she say 'what's going on?' Really close to my ear.

When i felt that someone starring at me,play with his eyes,make a loud applause when i finished my song and he didn't clap as loud before and why i know,
Cos i keep my eyes on him. although he try to hide behind his friend's back.but i know i already put a smile on his face,and give something to discuss with his friend.

To be continue...
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The Help (Change begin with a whisper )

The next movie i watched on last Thursday is "The Help"
one of movie which is succeed to make me cried :p
The film received four Academy Award nomination, including best pictures.
2011 drama film adaption of  Kathryn Stockett's novel.


 The #1 New York Times best seller by Kathryn Stockett comes to vivid life through the powerful performances of a phenomenal ensemble cast. Led by Emma Stone, Academy Award®-nominated Viola Davis (Best Supporting Actress, Doubt, 2008), Octavia Spencer and Bryce Dallas Howard, The Help is an inspirational, courageous and empowering story about very different, extraordinary women in the 1960s South who build an unlikely friendship around a secret writing project — one that breaks society’s rules and puts them all at risk. Filled with poignancy, humor and hope — and complete with compelling, never-before-seen bonus features — The Help is a timeless, universal and triumphant story about the ability to create change. ( taken from thehelpmovie.com )

i can't write more about this movie. i mean from my point of view. But this movie is entertaining and inspiring.
we need a big courage to  change something, big courage to tell the truth and need a big heart to see what the truth is.
i'm a strong girl! i can say my self like that, but this kind of thing easily touch my heart and pull my tears down. Well, i don't have to be shy to say, that i'm easily getting carried away with this kind of movie. :)
especially when i saw  Skeeter's (Emma Stone) childhood maid, Constantine (Cicely Tyson)
and by the way.. my friend Litto recommended this movie :) (good choice girl :p )



My Rate for this movie : ***** ( Good with + )

week of Movies

hi, its Monday..
another Monday :) One of Monday on March
Last week.. i can say its a week of movies.. its been a long time i can enjoy my time just watching movie.
so, i started again to do this stuff.
aand.. on last Thursday i can 'eat' five movies a day with my eyes :p
its look boring!! but not for me...
i started at 3pm with WHAT'S YOUR NUMBER . Chris Evans look so H-o-T in this movie.. lol! (cos' he look always almost naked in here :p )  its quite Fun film.
Ally Darling (Anna Faris) young woman who's now in her thirties and beginning to wonder if she'll ever find Mr. Right after so many Mr. Wrongs. she lil' bit down after she read an article on magazine saying that women who have had more than 20 sexual partners tend to grow old alone. she make her sex list, its 19. But unfortunately she make it 20 when she sleep with her ex Boss ( Joel McHale ) on her sister's bachelorette party. Starting for this list, she try to re-visit her Exes hoping that one of them already change became a man she dream of. She ask help from her new neighbor Collin ( Chris Evans ) a playboy, male hooker who always have different girls walk out from his apartment door in the morning, to track down her past lovers.
 i think you will already guess what the ending is gonna be. is highly predictable. same as the other movies before it :p
but at least this movie tell me that ' i don't have to be another else to make someone fall in love, being fake to impress someone. being my self !! and if there is some guy really interest and loving me cos who i am, so.. he's the guy!! ' ;)



My Rate for this movie : *** ( not bad ;) )

Saturday 17 March 2012

Fwwwwwweeuuuuw!!!
Thanks.. I really had fun tonight..
Drink, dance.. Sing (of course!!) Laugh..
I'm just reach at home.. After fame station..
2 bottle of bintang.. And some glasses of Martel, made me lil bit.. Excited :))

Fwuuuh.. I'm so tired.. And I'm soo.. SLEEPy!! ;)

But still.. Something missed..
Something.. Empty
Without... Mmm.. ....??... Mmmm...


Maybe without you!!

Rrrggh.. Let's go sleep!!!
Or.. Let's eat something..
Ahhaaa!! Noodleeeeeeeee time!!!! :)))))

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Monday 12 March 2012

With your (+) and your (-)


One day without hear your voice,
like the day without any sun
Two days without see your face,
like the night with no star
and three days without seeing your smile and hear your laugh,
like a Rainbow with no color

Thursday 8 March 2012

On the way

Mobil yang kutumpangi baru saja melewati KM 90 .. Menuju Bandung dari cikarang ..
Oh ya.. Hari ini aku bantuin Bproject maenggung di Gran Surya, cikarang.. Atau mungkin masuknya ke Bekasi? Hehhe..ga ngerti :p
Lumayan.. Hamdalah.. Akku bisa bernafas lebih panjang, ya yang pasti sih biar lebih ada kegiatan ..yaaaaaang.. Menghasilkan ;)

Di tempat ini juga nanti Sabtu orange pop bakal manggung.
Tempatnya masih baru, berkonsep spa dan karaoke.. Tapi ada live music nya juga.. Nah disitulah kita manggung hari ini.
Yaa.. Not bad lah.. Walaupun masih sepi,karena memang belum grand opening..mereka masih mencari home band yang bakal maen nanti..
Mobil memasuki km 98.. Aku mencoba memejamkan mataku.. Tapi rupanya tak mudah.. Jadi aku memutuskan untuk menulis sesuatu disini..

Just want to say..
Thanks for today God..
Thanks for everything you always give to me..
My nice life, my best Bf, my friends.. Everything i have right now..
I'll keep it.. Take care of it.. As long as i breath..
I'll try to sleep.. Still 1 hour to reach Bandung.. ;) Raining outside..
Have a nice dream all..
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Sunday 4 March 2012

Grateful

Sisa-sisa perjuangan minggu kemarin kurang dari limapuluh ribu.. Untung warung langganan dekat kostanku memperbolehkan aku ngutang dulu. Sekedar untuk sebungkus rokok.. Dan aku simpan duit receh itu untuk aku beli makan besok. Bayaran manggung sabtu malam baru aku bisa dapat hari selasa..fwuuh.. Harus survive sampai hari selasa nih.. Aaah.. Pasti ada jalannya..pasti ada rezekinya.. Tuhan tidak akan memberikan ujian di luar kemampuan umatnya.. Saya masih harus bersyukur atas nikmat2-Nya yang lain. Jadi.. Saya tidak ingin mengeluh lebih banyak lagi:)
Saat2 berat buat aku memang.. Tapi, toh aku masih bisa menikmati hangatnya semangkuk mie kuah, pedasnya nasi padang dan juga kepulan2 asap beracun..hehhee..
Kemarin aku memutuskan untuk melepas salah satu sepatu Guess yg ku punya.. Yaah.. Lumayan pikirku, dari pada ngejugrug ga jelas juga di lemari sepatu.jadi, salah satu teman kostku gita, menolongku bukain lapak di kaskus.:euheu..yaa..mudah2an cepet laku.lumayan juga buat nyambung nafas :p ( masih untung tuh,punya barang berharga buat dijual) hehehe..

Hari ini bangun siang, langsung mandi, aku berencana untuk ke warung nasi si ibu langgananku yang ga' begitu jauh juga jaraknya dari kostan.. Harganya murah dan makanannya pun layak dan enak.. Untuk 1 bungkus nasi, sayur dan lauknya cuma enam atao tujuh rebu ajaah.. Cocok lah kalo buat anak kostan mah. :))
 Sehabis mandi aku mengenakan salah satu celana pendek jeans kesayanganku..ketika teraba saku celana belakang.. Dan.. Oooh.. Ada yg terselip disana.. Dan wow!! Kaya nemu harta karun.. Ada dua lembar uang 20rebuan dan 1 lembar 5rebu,juga 1 lembar seribu..alhamdulillah.. Ku mengucap syukur.. Rezeki..hehehe.. Walaupun aku tau, itu uang gw2 juga..hahah.. Tapi, menemukan di saat seperti ini rasanya sesuatuuuu banget..

kembali aku mensyukuri apa yang aku punya. Dan menyadari betapa Tuhan selalu menyayangi umat-Nya tanpa pandang bulu. Dan Dia akan selalu memberikan rezeki kpd tiap2 umat-Nya.. Terima kasih ya Allah


Aku ingin berjuang, melalui ini semua..dan aku yakin..buah nya nanti pasti akan sangat manis :)

Ketika aku merasa akan menangis, berteriak, marah2 dan mengeluh..
Aku masih punya teman2 yang selalu membuatku tertawa(walaupun isi dompet menangis..hehehhe) mereka menyelipkan setitik harap,dan semangat untuk aku tetap bertahan. That's i call a real friend.. They will always stay even that you are in a hard time..in a bad time..
And change sad  turn to smile and laugh..

Dan, ketika aku merasa akan menyerah,ingin berlari,dan tak berdaya.. Masih ada seseorang yang selalu ada disana buat aku..dia tak berada disampingku,dan dia berada bermil2 jauh di bagian dunia sana.. Tapi dia selalu ada untuk aku..

Thanks my love.. I know that you really wanna help me.. But.. I still can fight for that :)
And i think we will have a deal about that :p
Thanks for supporting me always baby..give me hope..put the energy.. give motivations
You're the best thing i never had .. And I'm so glad..to have you now.. J'aime

Dan.. Thanks God ..
I know you set the best story of my life

Thursday 1 March 2012

Welcome March

Hi.. March...!!

actually i don't have any idea to write today.. but.. just want to send greeting to March.. to welcoming with smile and as usual with big hope and wish.. That March will be nicer than February :)
finger crossed!!!

 First day on March.. hmm.. not so bad :)
woke up at 1 pm .. had a cup of sundanese traditional hot drink ' Bandrek '. Then, check my castle on game.. but fffff!! it didnt work well, cos of my connection.. but, never mind!! then i took shower, bought something to eat. I had a plan to watch some movies on my laptop and enjoy my time. but then my neighbor ask me to watch movie together.. hmm why not? so, i watched that movie with him..   500 Days of Summer. not bad..!
500 Days of Summer tell about the life of Tom Hansen when he tried to win the heart of Summer Finn, to defend it, and keep struggles to get back after broken heart. This comedy drama movie is a story of "crack" presented by Tom's point of view. Since the beginning we were warned that this is not a love story. Scenes back and forth in the span of time when Tom and Summer together, delivered in a structure that is not just a linear story telling. Unfortunately, the appearance of supporting roles in sink because the glories of the main character.

Charming, fresh, and funny, (500) Days of Summer confronts us with destiny, attraction, passion, heart broken, and the tenacity of hope.

 


Anyway.. i just want to say...

Welcome March... BE NICE WITH ME!!!
(i have to go...  i have a date today ;) )