When The Last Teardrop Falls

One of my broken heart song.. When The Last Teardrop Falls, from Blaque..Here is the lyrics!
Dedicated for YOU!
Whose broke my heart! :)


It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

[Chorus:]
When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on
But my destination still unknown, oh yeah
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
When I was meant to walk these streets alone
If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight
It would be to have you right back by my side

[Chorus]

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again
And the emptiness from missin' you
Will never ever end, baby

[Chorus]

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Sleepy thought

Last night i fell asleep at 9 pm. Surprised me.. Never done that before since i remember this last years. Its a busy week.. Today it must be the last of busy day. And this is the last weekend i have in Bandung. The beginning of October i will be in Surabaya, East Java. Have a contract with my band for two months. Feel excited, even though feel so lazy to pack my bags.
1st of October i will start my first performance at Desperado, a bar at Shangri-la Hotel Surabaya.
1st of October i will start my first life in 30 years old. I will finish my golden age, my 29 year old.
Welcome to the club! Lol
Well, I'm not scare! I am sure it would be different. It would be more colorful. And i will live it like my twenty :)
Im glad that my busy week finally come to an end.. But i will have another one.. And next one..
No pain.. No gain..
Success is a process.. And what i did, what i do what i will do is a process and progress :)

Just got Into my room.. Lying down on my bed.. My blue room.. From my last gig in Bandung before i leave.
Enjoying the last 2 days in my Blue Room..
Too many story here.. Even though i just stay here for about 2 months..
This bed.. This blue wall tell the stories..
The stories that i have to leave behind..
The stories that i have to stop to write..
The stories that i will read it again, one day.. And i will smile on it :)
I really have to go..!
I really have to step out!
And once i decided to walk out the door.. I will never come back again..
Maybe i will come back.. Just to visit when i miss.. But  i wont stay..
Cuz..
I am an adventurer..
I don't have home yet to come home..
I don't have a place yet to call it home..
I don't know what it is.. Cuz i never had one..
I had once.. But.. I left it, cuz its not belong to mine, and i didn't deserved it.. So i cant call it as home..
I had once.. But.. I let someone took it.. And call it as hers home.. So i cant call it as home..
But one day..
I will have it.. And Im sure i will say.. I'm going home...
But for now..
I will just stay.. Somewhere.. The places where i could write another story..
Before i found a place.. That i call it HOME! a Place where i could write the rest of the story. With a good ending.. And i will stay there for the rest of my life.. And i wont move anywhere else!
Somewhere.. Someday.. With someone!

YES! Wont deny it!

He broke up with you, right? After telling you he loved you and calling you pet names like baby and cutie? or Sunshine..
Yeah, I know he lavished you in compliments, only to put himself down so you would stroke his fake low ego. DId he tell you that you were beautiful?
I bet he promised you a personalized song.
Or maybe he’d always mentioned how he was lying in bed and wished you were there.
He dragged “I love you” out of you, didn’t he? Yeah, don’t deny it.
He would talk to you last thing at night and first thing in the morning.
He constantly mentioned. losing sleep over you, every night, but we both know he slept like a rock.
He made you love pictures that were just sort of “blah” before. Did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart?
All of your friends hate him now, don’t they?
Remember how happy they were for you?They warned you.
Just remember,it’s okay to cry. And referring to him as “asshole” is perfectly expected.
Because, trust me, you’ll end up talking about him just as often, if not more, than before the break up.
There will be the one time’s and the I remembers,and once you think you’re over him, watch out. You better keep your eyes closed in the hallways, because I promise you, the next time you see him, he’ll be all over some other girl.
A little part of you will want to warn her, but nobody will blame you for hating her and for blaming her for your pain.
Yeah, you’ll compare all guys to him,because aside from the man-whorish, heart-breaker thing, he was perfect.
He was everything you had ever wanted.Or maybe you made that up.
Maybe, the second he started to show interest,you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just happened to be just like him.
Listen, you will find the perfect guy for you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon. Okay, so I didn’t believe it either, but I’m starting to.The most important thing though is don’t let him know he hurt you.
Don’t let him know he could have you back in a heartbeat.
Don’t give him that satisfaction.
Make him think you’re completely happy.
When he decides to wave at you like nothing ever happened, wave back, sure. But don’t smile.
Make him think he meant as little to you,as you obviously meant to him.........

Via - Candy

Where are You?

"I am not desperate for a relationship, 
but I do miss the feeling of having someone that can make me smile and feel appreciated.
Someone that can make calling and texting me the first and last thing they do everyday.
Someone that will be there to hold me when I feel vulnerable.
Someone that will look past my defects/flaws and love me for who I am.
Someone that will give me butterflies in my stomach every time we're together.
Someone that I can call mine."

I wanna fall in Love all over again.. With the same person, with the same guy. 
When i just wake up in the morning this person will be the first thing popped on my mind
And the last thing i think about when i closed my eyes.
Still Love him even though he make the silly stupid things
Holding his hand and show the world how proud i am to have him as mine 
Make and give surprise even not on special occasion
Share the feeling, share a good moment, fight and survive on bad situation

I don't know if i can found this kind of person in this crazy world
I don't know where to find..
I am still waiting..
For HIM to come into my life..
And welcoming with a big warm hug

Hey.. YOU!

Where are you now?

I DEDICATE THIS TO ALL WHO ARE IN LOVE

 A real relationship must have simple fights,trust, faith, tears, and genuine laughter. Jealous,Communication, patience, weird/stupid unnecessary arguments; no hiding secrets, true love and most importantly there must beforgiveness on both sides.
No one is perfect on earth, we all make mistakes in our relationships but the best solution is to accept your mistakes and say SORRY to your loved one.
It’s a small word but it means a lot.
Many of us find it so hard to say it out yet it costs nothing, but it only eases the tension between lovers. Say it from deep inside yourheart.
Don’t fake it please but just mean it always.
And if he/she is the one in wrong never get tired of forgiving him/her depending on what they have done. If you get to think of moving on because you’re pissed, my dear think of where you’re going, the time you will take to find & fitin a new relationship.
The imperfectness you will find with that new lover might be incomparable to the one you dumped, then you will start regretting and wishing you never dumped her/him.
Think about it my dear friends having it in minds that
WE HAVE GOT NO ANGELS ON EARTH.
We’re the ones to transform our BFs/GFs to belike angels.
So be proud of the one you have got and fightall the challenges that are trying to tear you apart.
Right now you may be seeing your guy/girl as a fake person but some dude/girl is somewhere seeing him as a handsome king/beautiful queen.
They’re wishing and praying you fall apart forthem to replace you.
THINK ABOUT IT

43 THINGS A GIRL WISHED HER BOYFRIEND KNEW !!

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never
really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.

#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you
to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow
her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight
& don't let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and
tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your
attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her
she's beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and
don't say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and
hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she's scared, protect her.

That’s enough for me

I knew that I would be shattered for life when I said goodbye to you. 
It was the saddest day of my life when we had to part and move on. 
But somehow I feel no one can take the place I have for you in my heart. 
I have loved you from the depths of my heart and soul. 
But I know sometimes it’s better to let go and not force your loved ones to stay no matter how miserable you feel. 
Now that we are not together and maybe we are not even destined to be. I still have a lot of love for you deep in my heart and soul. 
I like to think that somewhere out there in the outer space on an unknown planet there might be two loving souls exactly like you and me made for each other are together and wrapped in each others arms. This loving thought gives me peace and tranquility. I am happy that somewhere, we’re still together. That’s enough for me..

I'll Be Back!

Life is always a mystery.. Secret to reveal..
We never know or could guess what gonna happens..
Even though sometimes we could have intuition what could happens, when its really happened we always surprise! We never ready for the worst! Or we could be really happy for the best!

When something bad happened we can chose that it could make us down or take as a lesson to be a better and stronger person in the future, on next chapter, or in another story of life.
Cuz.. Its not just happened without any reasons!

When something good happened maybe its just our time to shine, to paid the pain we felt before, get serves what we deserve. And take it as a lesson as well to be grateful. That there are happines after sadness. The morning after dark, blue skies and Beautiful rainbow after rains.

Life is always complicated.. And hard, and sometimes not fair! If we think it is! The life it self isn't that complicated, if we make it simple.. If we take it easy.
But most of us think too much about it! Make it too complicated to live or to fight and survive!
I am sure you will say, Its ' easy to say'.. But so hard to put it and proves it in a real life.
Indeed!
Cuz i am just the same like the most people does! Make this life not as simple as that!..
Sometimes we just hope and expect too much for the things that we already know the answer is NO, but we also know that is much better than lose hope and stop dreaming.. Cuz if we stop we also get nothing!
And sometimes we denied and too proud to accepts for the things that we already know the answer is YES, we closed our mind, eyes and heart, lies to our self to the right and good things that we don't wanna feel. But we also know that is much better than expect too much then get hurt again and again.. Cuz if we expect too much we also know that we will get disappointed!
Complicated isn't it?

Yes.! Cuz.. We think too much! We are just another arogants and selfish creatures whose always want to be perfect, get and have something perfect! And we dont even perfect or do perfect for another!
Nothing is perfect! No one is perfect!
The only thing is.. Be grateful!

Well.. Its time for me to come back to my routine, daily and challanges that already facing me tomorrow!
I always ready for that.. Cuz i still want to learn!

Good bye Bali.. Sun.. Beaches..
Thanks for always surprising me with your exotic, peaceful and warm place!
I will be back! For sure! One day! Soon!

I am!

I am the new woman. 
I am a born fighter. 
You can bend me sometimes for your selfish motives but you can never break me because I am invincible. 
I am not jealous of any one because I am very confident about my own capabilities.
I believe that there is nothing in this world which I cannot accomplish because nothing can stop me from being an achiever in any field I want to master. 
I will not allow anyone to manipulate me or belittle my soul with deceitful conduct. 
I will not allow anyone to define or change me because I am free spirited and I have my own unique personality. 
I know how to fight back and survive on my own terms. 
If I am shattered I come back even stronger because I am determined to be a survivor and not a victim. 
Each day the challenges of life deepen the conviction in my soul and make me more determined to achieve my goals ....
..........................................................................................

I am Ready

I am ready..
To rock someone world!
I am ready..
To make someone world turn up and down!
I am ready ..
To make a butterfly effect on someone stomach
I am ready..
To create a big smiles on someone face
I am ready..
To make someone heart beat fast
I am ready..
To give feeling that someone is the lucky one ever
I am ready..
To make someone sweating, do fun exercises and getting crazy
I am ready..
To bring someone fly to heavens
I am ready..
To be the one for someone
I am ready..
To build a strong castle as a princess for a prince in our kingdom
I am ready..
To stay and wait be patient, and have a good attitude while waiting
But..
I am not ready..
To feel those pains and hurts again..
But i am still here.. Staying.. Waiting.. That someone to come..
The right person on the right time on the perfect moment

Smile.. :-p

I still the same! Its me!

Sorry that i didn't tell you that much about my life on this couple months..
And you do the same things.. I don't know that much about your life right now
Sorry that it probably hurt you as well..
But i did that cuz of so many reasons
Some people told me.. Maybe you moved on.. But i know for sure you can not!
Even i really want you to open your heart for somebody else..
Im so sorry that you don't even know where i live or stay right now..
But i thought you don't wanna know about me no more..
Day by day.. Life is changed.. And my life as well..
People changes..And maybe me for some part.. Because pain.. Changes people  !
But I'm still me.. I always be my self..
I still love drink tea in the morning.. And most of the time like you know, i left half of it.. And i only drink half of it!
I still love drink beer when i go to a bar or when i have a break of my gigs, or when  hang outs with my friends. And you know that i love mojito and tequila if i want lil' bit tipsy!
I still love my cigarettes.. But i had a plan to quit.. At least reduce it!
I still love playing games, but not that much recently.. Cuz my mind lil bit fucked up lately.. I cant even concentrate on my games.. I even left my pigs without feeding them, they cant produce any bacons. I left my cows, my horses and my dogs and cats.. Kinda miss them..  I have notifications.. That my farm is missing me.. They are missing me..
But i still playing candy crush.. Its just perfect for killing time! Although i got stuck for too long on the same level right now! ( pissed me off!)
I still love Bakso.. Thats for sure! My favorite food ever! And I'm kinda miss that blue Bakso stall in
Bali served sweet, spicy and sour soup! I still remember this 3B! Bakso, Beer and Beach! LOL

I still love Beach, sun and sunset! And still.. The best place to enjoy all of this is Bali! And i miss Bali a lot right now! I just wanna run away there!
I still love sex and love making things,  For sure.. But now just different! My favorite position is 9.. Thats me.. Curled up on my bed.. Alone . LOL
Instill learns my songs for rehearse,, cuz thats what i do and my passion for life. Music!
And all the rest about me that you know really well.. All still the same!

Something that might be different..
I wrote my own songs.. Well, i did before. and you know this song as well. But now those songs
more really 'me'!
I didn't took that much pictures on my phone. I still do capture my own pictures, but not that much
as before!
I eat chocolate a lot than before! First for gaining my weight.. And second.. As my mood booster!
I stay at a new place.. But still In Bandung for now. I have a blue room that i paint by my self.
I am back with Orangepop.. But some members are changed.. And now is much more fun to work together with those guys.. And i am a leader of this group.and im doing a new project, its like theatrical show. Im sure you will like it. Goona show you someday about this new project! Just wish me good luck ;)
I dont use skype that much right now.. Or use it that long.. Nobody i can talk that long in there.
I have a curly hair.. Which is you dont like that much.. Because you prefer my straight hair. But i promise you.. I look good on that ;)
I have a tan skin.. Much more brown than before.. And im sure you would love it. Even i know you always love me the way i am.
I dont use the cactus that much for now.. Cuz you know its already broken and i need plant a new one to make it grow.. Aww :-p



Thats all i can say for now..
But one thing for sure... You always have a special place in my heart.. Like i told you.. Nobody can love the way you love me! But maybe one day.. Someone will replace you! But still.. You are still specials
One more thing.. Sorry! And i mean it!


  

Coming Soon

No matter what pain you've been through, your tears will dry, your broken heart will heal, 
and somewhere out there the person who truly cares is waiting for you... 
That person will come into your life and he or she will permanently be yours. 
That person will never make you cry, plead and lack. 
He or she will never get tired of forgiving you; 
He or she will always be there for you, 
appreciate everything you do for him or
her, respect you, care about you and return all your love. 
That person won't be with fear of introducing you to his or her parents and friends. 
That person will be proud of what you are. 
That lonely heartbroken person is also out there looking for you
so don’t hate love because of the current situation you’re going through and don’t lose hope. 
God will help you find someone that you deserve someday.

For all singles.. For all broken hearted, for you who lose hope..
Don't stop believing.. 
All your suffering will change into happiness.. Sooner or later.. 




Via - Candy

Morning thought

I just don't understand why..
When the guy said ' I Love You' or i still love you very deep... But they don't even fight for it!  They decided to go with another woman. And still able to say these 3 words to another woman!
They lies to himself. They closed their heart to something they don't wanna feel.
Or its just another bullshit.. Another lies ? Cuz.. When they meant it! They will prove it by act!
 They judge us about something we did! They don't even know how hard  the time we've been thru..
They think we always wrong.. They think we make drama.. They think we are childish.. They think we are too weak..
But they don't even know what we did for them.. They don't know the story behind the scene!
So.. What i know now..
These kind of guys really don't deserve a True love.. A real love..
These kind of guys who think they have big love enough to share with not only one woman.
These kind of guys who think about their own life, without thinking they hurt someone else heart!
On my opinion.. And my thought..
I deserve better than this kind of guys!
I just realized.. I did the right things.. To the wrong guy!
But still..
I wishing them.. A real happiness..
You know about KARMA?
It doesn't have any menu.. You will get serves what you deserve..
Just wait.. It will come.. Sooner or later.. Or maybe.. Instantly..
And Good Luck with that!  

Hang out at Chinook

The boys at Chinook

Chinook 

My beer 

Another place to hang out in Bandung.. Chinook. Small bar, cozy place to hang out with friends or your special one.
Cafe and resto with urban concept. I can see unique paintings hanging on the wall.. Nice warm lighting.
Provided with free wifi. With few sofas and high wood tables around.
Im sitting at the bar right now.. With 'kapal selam' on a glass, its a glass of beer with one shoot of tequila inside.  The Boys, the name of band which is friend of mine playing one of my favorite song, 'no surprises' by Radio Head in acoustic.
Im here with my two best friends.. They are a couple.. And im all alone as
a single and ready to mingle.. Lol but.. Too bad.. I am not interest to flirt around.. Haha

This cafe placed in jalan Riau Bandung, at Riau Hotel exactly. one of the famous street in Bandung for tourist, cuz is a tourist destination for shopping. Where you can see so many factory outlets along the street.

Hey single lady!

My drink almost finished.. Guess i will need another glass to order..
The guests are sing along together.. Oasis song.. Don't look back in anger is playing..
I follow them to sing.. Out loud.. I feel i release something.. Fweeeeeeeh! I feel something warm inside me.. I wish its a good sign..

With my bestie! 

Cheers..

Cheers!!!

Chinook Cafe Jalan R.E. Martadinata No. 191 Bandung

No Idea

I know you and someone didn’t turn out the way you wanted. 

You loved that person and you had all your future in them but they turned out breaking your heart. You are now hurt, stressed, it’s all over your mind, you can’t get over it right way, you always talk about that person with a few of your friends.

whenever you go to your bed you flash back what you went through with that person

you keeping on wondering what went wrong? 

Now you are saying that maybe you weren’t good for them…

But hey, stop thinking that you weren’t good enough for that person.

don’t think that there’s nothing interesting about you, don’t beat yourself up.

You are something and you are so precious.

 My dear friend stop stressing yourself, that person is out there and h/she doesn’t think about you anymore, you are being emo about it but that person is out there trying to be happy with that
new person. 

Gather the broken pieces of your heart and start living your life now. 

I know it isn’t so easy like the way it sounds but if you know what you want you can make it. 

Trust me there’s someone out there who admires your
personality, your behaviors, your maturity, your
smartness, your care, love… Keep praying to
God and he’ll help you meet that person someday

#selfmotivation #moveon

Things Every Girl Wants But Wont ask For

60 Things ALL GIRLS should know about GUYS

1. Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE)

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3... Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

About Your Ex

Yeah ....

She Might Do Everything Just To forget You, Delete All Your Photos Go Thru Her Phone To Delete All his messages..

But, Trust me!

She cant Forget Every Sweet Messages You Used To Send Her. 

She Will Even Go On Facebook and remove you As Your Friend but Still come Back And Stalk you To See if You Got A new Girl. 

She might have stopped talking to you because she deleted your Phone number, but
she'll never forget your voice.

 She might have ignored you, but she'll never forget How Your face looks.

 She might have stopped hugging you, but she'll never forget your smile. 

She might not be a part of your life anymore, but she'll never forget you and all the memories you shared.
But one thing Guys, That is the Girl who was truly loving you at heart but she was forced to leave you because of some pressure outside Like cheating, you ignoring Her And Talking to other girls, you not giving her all the attention and many other reasons.

She will always think of you and you will always be her true love though you are not
together. 

But don’t lose hope, if at all she was meant to be yours no matter how many years will pass by destiny will bring you together and you
will adore each other..

Things Every Girl Wants but Wont ask For

That Day!Today!Special Day!

Look at you!

Where are you standing now?

Who is there beside you?

What are you doing now?

What is your purposes to be at that place?

I know all the answers for my own questions..

And you either

Look at her!

Where was she that day?

Who was with her that moment?

What she was doing on that special day?

What she did for you? What she gave?

I know all the answers for my own questions..

And you either

Look at me! Do you remember..

Where i was that day?

Who i was with that moment?

What i was doing on that special day?

What i did and what i gave?

I know all the answer for my own questions 

But, I'm not sure if you know, or if you still remember..

At that time, the date

That day.. That month.. On this year.. 

The day that gonna change your life story

Change my own story

And also had change our story

And on that day you are there.. Denying something

You are there fixing something

And you are there screwing anything!

You could lies and get cover put your mask on to them, to the world!

But not to your self.. 

Your mind say YES

But your heart says NO!

Your mind say No

But your heart say YES!

Your mind say ' you're STUPID'

Your heart say ' You are Honest'!

Your mind say ' Its Logic'!

Your heart say ' Its Feeling'!

Your mind say ' Mistake'

Your heart say ' Love'

And your heart is really in pain now.. Cuz you let it lost! 

You listen to your mind in your head 

You ignored it.. You denied it! 

One thing that i really want for now.. 

You Happy! 

The real happiness.. 

I hope you dont lie... No more!

Then i will be Happy as well!!

Happy 'Special Day' for 'Special' one!

45 Things a girl wants but will NOT ask for!

Things Every Girl Wants But Wont Ask For

1 . Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her your jacket.

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

My Top 33 Broken Hearted Songs

Nobody wants to be lonely.. Nobody want to be hurt or in pain.. And nobody want to feel broken heart. It happen and we cant even control it!
And when it happened, we just want to stay alone, and cry.. And just being alone.
Will not let anyone even to enter your room.. You just wanna be alone
But.. You will let Music stay with you.. To make you cry even louder and harder, To feel the pain even more hurt. Even your heart is more broken into small pieces. Or maybe to make you feel better.. Or worst.. To give you spirit to be strong and move on.  At least.. The Music is there with you! Be faithful and stay with you.
Anyway.. I just share what the songs on my playlist.. If you are in that ' broken ' situation.. You will probably need it as a suggestion. Enjoy the pain! And Loss! :) :)
Keep move on!!!

1. Hardest day - The Corrs ft AlezandroSanz 
2. Breakeven - The Script
3. One last cry - Bryan Mc Knight
4. Kissing You - Des'ree 
5. Good Bye My Lover - James Blunt
6. Aint No Sunshine - John Mayer version
7. Dont you Remember - Adele
8. Broken Wings - Alter Bridge
9. Need You Now - Lady Antebellum
10. How to heal a broken heart - Chris Walker
11. Somebody already broke my heart - Sade
12. Here Without You - 3 doors Down
13. Shadowless - Toni Braxton
14. Broken-hearted girl - Beyonce
15. Separated - Usher
16. When You Love Someone - Bryan Adams 
17. All Out Of Love - Air Supply 
18. Right Here Waiting - Richard Mark
19. Sorry Seems  To Be The Hardest Word - Blue/Elton John
20. Back To Black - Amy Winehouse
21. Try Sleeping With a Broken Heart - Alicia Keys
22. Still Remind Me - Anggun
23. You're All I Need - White Lion
24. Cant Take My Eyes off you - Damien Rice
25. Dont Say You Love Me - The Corrs
26. Disappear - Beyonce 
27. Song from A Secret Garden - Secret Garden ( instrument)
28. When the last teardrops fall - Blaque
29. One Last Breath - Creed
30. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
31. No surprises - Radio Head 
32. Fix You - Cold Play
33. I DONT WANNA MISS A THING -  AEROSMITH

That One!

She will never forget that one guy who made a big impact on her life. 
That one guy who became her first love. 
That one guy who she has been through so much with. 
That one guy who showed her the good & bad sides of love. 
That one guy who showed her happiness & pain. 
That one guy who made her smile the biggest & cry the longest. 
That one guy who made her feel her first heartbreak. 
That one guy who helped her grow up. 
That one guy who taught her how to love & how to hate.
That one guy who first showed her what jealousy felt like. 
That one guy who first showed her what being lied to felt like.
That one guy who first showed her what butterflies in the stomach felt like. 
That one guy who first showed her what having someone to share her life with felt like.
Every girl has that one guy who were the firsts at a lot of things for them, 
some they're still with & some they're no longer with.
–_– Via Candy
You can go and live so far away from me.. 
You could be with your woman now
You could pretend that you feel something amazing with your woman
You could lie again and again..
But im the one who knows the truth! 
You know that you can get over me!
Like i am now!
Good luck with that! I know its sucks!
But well, i have to move on!
You will always have a place in my heart
Where i can hate and love you in the same times

Top 5 lies that girls tell

1) I'm fine.
2) I'm not jealous.
3) I'm over him.
4) Sure we can be friends.
5) It's okay.

Welcome September

Good morning world.. Good morning Universe.. Good morning September..
Thanks God that i still breathe today.. Open my eyes, started the day with hope..  That today would be a better day than yesterday.. This month would be nicer than last month.
I will still be grateful for little i have right now, and for i had before. Even though now its gone, maybe it just your way to teach me to be stronger. Its your secret to give me the best! I know you have a better plan than i expected!
Im still grateful to had a hard time in the past month.. My heart being hurt, it broken, got stabbed, fell into pieces, but at least it still work. I have been cried too much, i was really down, and i felt like my world falling apart! But you give me hope to survive.. Hope about a better day, better situation.
And how you teach me to be a better person. To look at my self, that i don't have to be cocky and arrogant. Cuz i have nothing to be like that, when you want, you just take everything i have, and when you want you could gives everything that  i wish for. I know it doesn't work like that. You will not always give what i want! You work in a mysterious way.
And i also learn to grown up and not to be childish.  Facing the real and mean worlds. Again.. You still give that strength for me stand up.. Yes, Hope! As long as still there, i am sure i can survive.
If that hope will crush again.. At least i tried.. And i will learn again to be stronger!
I will not ask the perfect life for me.. I will just ask a fair one. Even though i know life sometimes is unfair. But I'm sure about something.When you're not giving it today or right now, or on the coming  next month or year, you will.. One day! Im sure.. Everybody who were suffers a lot would have a greatest happiness ever. And it happens with people around me.
Forgive them who hurt me. They just forget how to give.. And they just want to take.. Let them feel what i feel.. But i will not do it with my hand..
Life is always about karma.. Whats goes around comes around..
And karma has no menu.. You get serve what you deserves

So as long as i do a good thing.. God never closed his eyes..
I will reap what i sow..

Welcome September..  I know you would be nice to me..

I'm Not! And I am

I'm not angry because we broke up,
I'm sad because I can't let you go..
I'm not angry at you for not loving me,..
I'm angry with me for still loving you..
I'm not angry that I lost you,..
I'm sad because I once had you..
I'm not angry that I can't have you,
I'm sad because I know what I'm missing..
I'm not angry that you've moved on,
I'm sad because I can't..
I'm not angry that you won't come back,
I'm sad because I keep hoping you will..
I'm not angry because I hate you and don't
want to,..
I'm sad because I miss you and I love
you...♥♥

Things Every Girl Wants but Wont Ask for