Happy Anniversary

Musim dingin akan segera dimulai, atau mungkin ini adalah awal dari musim dingin. oouuuch!! I hate cold!!
Tahun lalu, hujan tak berhenti mengguyur kota Bandung sepanjang November. Dan itu membuat saya memutuskan untuk kabur dari derasnya hujan Bandung menuju matahari Bali. Yap! 1 tahun lalu saya mengunjungi Bali selama 2 minggu. Sebenarnya bukan sekedar Hujan atau Dingin yang membuat saya terbang ke Bali. Patah hati! itu alasan utamanya. Refresh! itu yang saya butuhkan pada saat itu.
Saya datang kesana tidak bermimpi atau berharap untuk bertemu seseorang yang lain yang bisa menyatukan kembali puing-puing hati yang tengah pecah dan berdarah. Yang tengah patah terbelah. Saya hanya ingin hangat, saya tak mau menggigil kedinginan. Saya hanya tak ingin terpuruk. dari gelap menuju terang. menyingkap mendung dengan sinar mentari.
Dan ya! Sunset pantai kuta dan double six membuat saya tenang, bergairah menjalani hidup, juga bersyukur atas nikmat-Nya.
Betapa indah cerita yang Tuhan tulis untuk jalan cerita hidup saya.
Setelah hujan Tuhan ciptakan pelangi.
Dipertemukanlah saya dengan seseorang yang sangat istimewa.
yang bisa membuat saya kembali bermimpi
yang bisa membuat saya kembali berharap
yang bisa mebuat saya kembali hidup
yang bisa membuat saya merasa berharga
membuat saya menjadi diri saya.
dan membuat saya menjadi saya yang seharusnya!
Dia susun kepingan-kepingan hati saya yang berserak satu persatu dengan kasih sayang dan rasa percaya! Dia tanam bibit cinta di dalamnya. Dia siram dengan segala perhatian juga kejujuran. Dan dia jaga dengan kesetiaan.
Dia tidak sempurna, begitupun saya. Namun kekosongan yang bisa saling terisi membuat kami memutuskan untuk meyakini mimpi dan harapan, bahwa suatu hari nanti mimpi dan asa akan terwujud nyata.
Bukan satu kali rasa pedas mencampuri manisnya gula, bukan juga satu kali cemburu menjadi bumbu. Beberapa kali amarah terpecah sehingga terlintas untuk menyerah. Kadang ketika marah, saya mengucap kata pisah!!
Jarak ribuan mil dapat memisahkan tubuh kami, raga kami namun tidak hati kami.
Perbedaan waktu, perbedaan warna kulit, perbedaan budaya, perbedaan bahasa, perbedaan suku bangsa, perbedaan agama, perbedaan pendapat, perbedaan pemikiran, perbedaan dalam segala hal. Tidak mebuat kami menghentikan langkah menuju Bahagia!
Kami menjadi pasangan bukan hanya karena banyak persamaan, namun juga karena banyaknya perbedaan.
tidak mudah menjalaninya..!
wajar jika saya merasa bangga dan bahagia, saat hari ini tiba!
karena perjalanan selama 12 bulan ini tak mudah..


I'm sorry if i always Hungry
I'm sorry when I'm Angry
I'm sorry when i feel Worry
I'm sorry i can't come early to your country
And
I'm sorry if you had got jealous with my Blackberry
But....
Thanks for loving me Extraordinary
Thanks for the gift with "battery"
Thanks for always be my baby, my only and my fairy
Thanks for all the best memory
and one more thing with ry...
I really would be happy.. if someday we get marry :-P

Happy anniversary!

Change something!

Banyak kejadian di bulan ini yang terlewatkan saya tulis.. mungkin bulan kemarin juga..
atau juga bulan sebelumnya.
saya masih di Abu dhabi.. Udara di UAE tampaknya mulai sangat bersahabat, mataharinya hangat dan anginnya sudah mulai sejuk. Musim dingin akan segera datang. Sayang, sepertinya saya tidak dapat menikmati sepenuhnya musim dingin di sini. Merasakan bagaimana dinginnya UAE. But, anyway.. i hate cold! so.. no regret :)
Pertanyaan nya.. mengapa saya tidak akan bisa menikmati musim dingin disini?
Ya! Saya akan segera meninggalkan Abu dhabi, meninggalkan drama yang ada di dalamnya, meninggalkan peraturan peraturan yang mengikat dan strictly.
Jika saya harus mengatakan saya bahagia disini atau merasa kerasan dan betah.. saya telah berbohong! ya i'm exciting to could found the new world and live on it.. but seriously.. i'm not happy. the only reason why i stay because of the money, and because i have a friend and not to be alone around the stranger in this new world!! I was alone when i just reached this country, after that i have a friend, as my roommate, as my friend to talk to, as a sister for share the food or just tea in the afternoon. A friend who could be as drunk as me.
but... you know what? they took it again from me!
Thats why i wrote there were to many story i missed to tell here.
Remember on a Hectic day i posted ,, after that day,  i came back to Abu dhabi with my Friend, my new partner in Band.. Windy. In some days we adapted each other, and be a friend in any situation. And i also threw my selfishness, cos before i get used to live alone- to be a person who is able to share with other.
Sometimes we have quiet talk, or not talk each other, but we learned our self. Until we get used to be a real friend, or lets say.. as a family, as a sister.
Then last month, we heard some bad news! She had to leave, her contract was not extended! so she must leave on November. I feel bad about that, and i knew,she felt worst! But then the rumor was going so far and uncertain, from day to day it became different story. I just don't get it what the hell is going on inside this management! One day they said she might be stay, and another day she could be leave. But, at last she will leave anyway.  
During this period of uncertainty , she tried to find another job with another bands, and i also help her to find one from my friend. Good news came.. To female singers needed for China gigs! I offer my self, and i challenge my self to get this opportunity. I wont tell here how we passed all the hectic days or situation we have until we got this job! just too much drama!
So in a short way, i can tell.. I've resigned from this job! and take another opportunity. I gave 30 days notification resignation letter on 16th of November.  So, i will be free on November 15th. And going to China!!! uuh damn! another new world..
But, i'm not afraid.. Because of decision i took. It could be good or bad.. but at least.. i change something.
Ask yourself.. Are you Happy? if Yes : keep going.. if Not : Change something! and that what i did so far.

I am ready, and always ready for new challenges,  new world, new possibilities,  failure, fall. I will never get enough to catch my dream.. and if i fall i will never stop, to stand up and the run again :)

so now.. lets prepare all i need to be ready on time.. I will reach my goal.. as i believe!
China.. here i come!

Lucky / Unlucky

The day already turn to Wednesday for me.. 1.44 am my laptop time..
A week ago.. precisely on Thursday around 3 pm. I had lost something precious, i could say for part of my life.
i lost my phone.. :( My phone has been stolen in public car!
that time i was thinking .. im not lucky! i have really bad day.. hard day for me!
but.. we never know..
i heard some story from my boy friend.. about China Farmer.. its inspiration story.. that story tell about something Lucky.. and Unlucky .. sometime we feel lucky that we have something, then in another day we will says  'i'm not lucky', or she / he is not lucky. 
like the story i had.. that time i said.. i'm not lucky! but.. in some days.. i get the new one.. from something that i didn't expect before.. and more good thing.. i have a better one.. How lucky i am!
but, actually.. what i disappointed about this lost.. My memory card inside.. is like my memory about my life.. my past! the pictures, Video, my contact, all about my works.. the moment that can't repeat in the future, and its also my fault.. i regret.. why i didnt back up my file.. hehehe.. stupid me!!
but.. i really learn so much from this..! Really!!
Good bye my white.. welcome my Black
I'm ready for new stories ;)


 

This ain't A sad Song

Ten days are the long days.. Ten days were the short days..
Share the good moment, share a bad one.
im not used to have someone on my bed
24 hours live together
7 days a week make so many things together
small fight and big laugh

-9

time goes by so fast .. it feels like yesterday,  November passed into December, then December closing the year. Welcoming January 2012, and now we are already approaching the end of the month. the Last weekend in January. welcome the arrival of February. a Month with full the story of. a Month with some BIG moments  in my life.
 for my future,  The boy become 2 on 1st, The girl become 9 on 25th,
from my past, that guy become 29, and if it still going, the couple become 7.

And this year, another Big moment for me will also come on this month. A new beginning, new dream and new hope. Something strong that affect my life.
2012 going really good so far, for my life.. and i hope still run good.. until the end of the year ;)

hey February... You'll be here..! and i'll be there :))
-9

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