PMS! Period MakeMe Silly!

18 June 13
2nd day, my period. Annoying! Finally I cried!after a whole day I kept the tears! Its always makes me up and down. Just feeling mellow! Blue, grey or whatever
Just feel about doubt, feel being ignore, needing someone, to give a shoulder to cry on! I know that I must not focus about needing someone! I can found my own happiness. I can create a smile. And there are so many reasons to smiles and laughs! I just need to find it. Or create it!
Its just silly of me!
My head always travel all alone..

Maybe life just like a laptop, or computer. When its hang, error or going slowly, just need to restart. Or shut down, so when its start again, will be much better. I just need to sleep, shut down my brain, hope a better day when I wake up!
But, I don't want to wipe all the memories for now, so I don't have to format it to factory setting, before I have any back up all documents inside. Important documents I wanna keep remain.
Okay, close my eyes, thinking about good things, smile, sweet dream, and then smile again when wake up!

Happy Tuesday! Day oooofff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Happy Founders Day - Hard Rock cafe

Took from HRC Penang Facebook page

14th of June, isn't a special day for me. Especially this year. Cuz i really need mood booster. But, the sun always be a good mood booster for me. Thanks God the sun is shinny today
But, 14th of June is a special day for Hard Rock Cafe.Yes, indeed!
Why? Cuz, its Founder's Day. The day when Hard rock cafe was born In London on June 4th 1971.
As a band whom perform at Hard rock cafe, we become part of this celebration, and me as singer at this band become a part of this celebration as well.
So today i got up around 2 pm. Opened up curtain the see if there any shining sun for me today, cos it was horrible weather yesterday. Rain and storm!
And yeaah.. The sun put a big smile on my face! Time for sun bath! Grab my bikini then put sun
block on my body.

I walked to Hard rock Hotel, and saw most of 'band members' (they called all staffs as a band
member) wore a cool stuff outfit from 70's. mmhh.. Cool!
And we will wear the same cool stuff tonight for the party at Hard rock cafe. I bought this cute dress
2 days ago. Can't wait to show up! :-)

Then i walked to staff canteen, the name is Motown, to have some late lunch. 

Cake at Motown 

One side of table at motown

 And the menu was lil bit different as daily menu we has everyday, except there had some event. Oh yeah, its a special day!!
Look like i came so late, cuz i saw empty
plate of some foods storage. So, i just found spaghetti carbonara, Caesar salad, fish and chips, and mashed potato. Not bad at all. And i also found ice cream. Hmm.. More
than enough to feed my belly before take the sun.

Rock shop band member

When i walked in to the pool, i saw shop staffs in front the
shop, all wearing 70's costume. I grab my ipad and took their
picture! Say roooooooock!!

And here i am  now, lying under the sun. Feel the heat, feel happy and relax 

Let me enjoy my sun, then i come back to tell the rest story if this
celebration, cuz its not finished yet.




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Lets continue what was happening on founders day celebration at Hard rock cafe last night.
After suntan time, i went back to Motown, time for dinner :-p oh yeaah.. I always hungry! I was on time those time. Cuz i saw the plates with load of food!! Actually it was same menu as lunch, but i didn't see that amount of burger, chicken grill, and another small cake on lunch. Cuz it was sold out! Lol!! I ate again, but this time with burger and grilled chicken. I drank ice cream shake. Or lets say milkshake. Chocolate milkshake.  

After dinner i bring my laundry then home. Took a shower and prepare my self. We must stand by earlier, cuz we might be play earlier as well. So, i putted on my make up, my 70's dress, and accessories. And i wore my wedges! Which is look good on me, i look higher. but I couldn't move as free as i wear flat boots! And especially for men, you will never know what women feel on heels! I must took 2 shoot of tequilas to relieve the pain on my feet. LOL.. Cuz i sang with that wedges for 4 sets!i and i have to dance! Dance on this shoe??? Give me another glass of beer!!!! Oh my!!!!!!! But i made it!. 

 When i came to Hard rock cafe around 9 pm,  the crowd was good already. And i saw long table with red cover on da stage. Bite competition was starting there. Five guys stand behind this long table, their mouth kept chewing, their hand hold burger. So, there were quick bite challenge.  I didn't give more attention to this competition. But i saw like  three or four rounds with different participants 
every round. 
If i were 
on that competition, i will be lost that for sure!!I can eat burger, but eat burger like that quick! Brrrrrr! I will never ever win a competition about eating something! Much, or faster! No! Im a cool chick who eat really slow!! Lol  

After all those quick bite challenge,  then announce the winner, time for main celebration. Sing happy birthday, blow the candle and cut the cake. But this year the cake was different. It was a giant burger!!!  Not a cake!

 After that main celebration , we started the set with YMCA song, Hard Rock staff dance together on this song! We played for around 30 minutes with all 70's songs. Then took a sort break as usual. 15 minutes! And another 3 sets after.. Tiring especially me on that wedges! But 
it was fun! I had fun! The people had fun! 

Happy born day for Hard Rock .. 42 years.. And still exist!

Have a rockin birthday!

Keep rockin'!!!!

 

June 13'13

apa dayaku?
Aku bukan siapa-siapa..
Aku hanya duri diantara bunga mawar
Aku hanya rasa pahit diantara madu
Aku hanya seorang badut diantara pesta meriah
Dan aku hanyalah orang dibalik layar

Apa aku tak boleh memiliki perasaan itu?
Apa aku tak pantas merasakan apa indahnya cinta?
Apa aku tak pantas merasakan indahnya dicintai
Apa aku tak pantas berdiri disampingmu
Apakah aku sejelek itu?
Apakah aku sehina itu?

Mungkin aku hanya ditakdirkan untuk aku!
Mungkin aku hanya diperbolehkan bermimpi tanpa mewujudkannya
Mungkin aku hanya diperbolehkan untuk menderita
Mungkin aku dilahirkan hanya untuk sebuah lelucon semata.

Aku berhak untuk bahagia
Aku masih berhak mencari bahagiaku
Aku masih berhak untuk mendapatkan apa yang aku mau
Aku masih berhak mewujudkan semua mimpiku!

Atau mungkin tidak sama sekali?
Aku hanya harus membayar semua kesakitan yang pernah aku buat.
Akau hanya harus menerima tak boleh meminta
Dan aku hanya harus menerima karma?!!

Apakah ini cukup adil bagiku?
Mungkin ya!
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Day off plans!

I did day off dancing when i just arrived home after gig tonight. Ooh yeah.. Another day off! After party, party, party!!!! I love Monday now. Cuz it real close to Tuesday, my day off.
I ate my supper so much! At riverside, small restaurant in front of Hard rock hotel with all Band member, and my manager as well. Quick meeting after supper make my tummy scream again! Need some snack! I end up with chewing chicken flavoured crackers, and mister potato fun fries. Sorry, i love eat! LOL

Lets talk about what kind of things I'm gonna do tomorrow!
Visit my secret spot?That's for sure!! First plan!
 This place makes me addicted. How come i don't! Comfort place, nice food and drink, hot vanilla tea become my favorite. And m&m as a small bites ;)
I can lie down and cover my feet when its cold, I can have sun bath as well when the sun is shine.
I can hear very nice music, nice songs, or i can watch movies. And i can play games. Any games!
And this place have a nice,humble kind charming owner.nice, cool funny hot staffs. And one more thing, i could sing as well if i want. But, no for that one! Sing too much already!! 😬
I think i can spend whole day at this place. One thing that i hate, is when i have to leave, even though its open for 24 hours, but i can't stay there forever cuz i have to work! Lol
So tomorrow.. Its time for "me time" . Where i can be happy on my own way, where i can enjoying my self, and be my self.

Another plan for tomorrow.. Shopping!!! Yeaaah.. !! But, naah.. Its not that kind of shopping. I just to buy a dress, for founder days on 14th of June at HRC. Back to 70's, kinda cool! And we will play the
 songs from 70's.


3rd plan.. Do something special! Even though i don't know yet what kind of that something special. 😆 just wanna feel special on my day off! Cuz before, i wasted too much! Just stayed at room, played games that i can finished only in 3 hours, or just watch movies on Youtube. And i didn't see the world.  So, i think i missed a lot of fun things.

4th plan... Sleep late as usual.. Or depend how tired i would be after all those plans! I hope the weather could work together with me! Hey weather.. Be nice with me for tomorrow ya!  I don't want rain ruin all my plans like you did on my last day off! I will really appreciate if we can work together as a team! Thank you. 😎

Well, thats all my plans so far for my day off!

Be happy, have fun, fall in love , enjoy, smile, be crazy, and regret nothing!!!
Off to bed!

Last month - Penang

Second week of June.
I'm still in Penang Malaysia. And this gonna be our last month. The contract at Hard Rock Cafe will end soon, about 3 weeks to go.

I really miss Home.. If i can call it home.. One day, i would like to go a place what i can call it Home!
I know that i won't be traveling forever. I just wanna stay, settle down, with all the people i love at a place that i call it home.

"Home... hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home... I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home "
~ Walk on - U2

Lets say.. I miss all the people i loves... My angel and my prince, My family, my best friends!
I miss the city where i was born, Bandung.
I miss the weather, even sometimes i feel its too cold or rain too much
I miss the people, even sometimes they pissed me off
I miss the foods. I can't complain about this one. I just love Bandung's foods!
I can't wait to eat Bakso, Sambal, Jengkol, Sundanese food!
Anyhow.. Its coming soon!

Penang..
One thing that i love from this island is beach!
I can have sunbath whenever i want! Except when its rain like this Sunday and last Sunday.
And.. One more thing that i love the most from Penang. My secret spot. At Batu Ferhinggi area.
A place where i feels comfort at, a place where i can run from my routine, a place where i can be me, take my mask off. Where i can be happy, where i can share all about my feeling, i can cry or laugh! where you feel love and be loved in that same time.
My favorite spot! My secret spot that i will never share with another! Cuz, its just my spot! That what  i wish! But, no! one minus thing about this spot. Sometimes, the other takes my place, my favorite spot! So i can't come to enjoy, to have 'me time'! I wish that i could make a same spot wherever i go! I really need it! Especially this month, after something bad happened. And i still have time to go.  I'm gonna miss this place when i leave Penang. Hope that i can come back here next time, and my secret spot still there!

So.. 3 weeks left before i go back to Indonesia. Still have time to have fun and forget all about unnecessary things. About what people think about me, or about shit happened! I just wanna be happy on my own way! Everyone is gonna have their opinions about me, how i act, who am i, best thing to do is not really care at all! And nothing will change who i am!

I'm sweet.. For my someone special
I'm tough.. For my family
I'm dangerous ... For my rival
And I'm all bad ... for you who don't have any quality inside you to see what my values are
I've decided to be happy... Cuz.. Its good for my health and my heart😋
Life is too short to worry about stupid things! Have fun, have fun, dance, sing, fall in love, laugh, regret nothing. There are so many ways, so many reason to smile.. So, find it!
*uuh am so wise!!!!!! LOL
 Just cheers!!!! For Happiness!!!!!!!